what is life?

Back on track..

2009-06-10T17:09:00.002+08:00

Wow, forgotten all about this piece of craps (BLOGGING). Haha, been enjoying myself for the past few weeks, until totally forget this blog le. Went Ronald birthday, then follow by Vincent birthday. Next will be Jonas~ haha, Vincent is a fucking rich guy lo, open bottle until we cant finish it. Actually, we didnt really drink la. I working monday, so nv drink at all, Xiao chris Driving, Ivan motor, then the other friend of Vin name ah xing also driving, So out of 10 ppl only like 4-5 drink nia. He go open 7 bottle, where can finish? We went to TOP ONE KTV first, there open 4 bottles Chivas. haha. HAD ALOT OF FUN since dono when le. See ah jian and ah siao both high then go shout poem, LOL. Then the JIan go take Ice tong wan to poke the server cos he ask us don open the door as we have been playing with the smoke machine. The room was so hazy that i cant even see who is right infront of me. Really LOL sia, heng i no drink if not i think that guy sure kena liao. After that we went NANA at central mall there. Opened another 3 martell. There boring la, but i saw YAN DAO SUA de Ah xing and ba geh. Long time no see them le. Had a few sip then i went home, need to work on monday~ SIANZ...

GOing along fine with my work, everything seems coming to place for me le. Getting along just fine with my single life, without clubbing or drinking to excess anymore. I found out that i'm a changed man le. Mahahaha, work and BROS nth else. I and Jonas planning for his birthday right now, VIn open 7, we must open more if not no face. HAHAHA

BTW, my XxtypeXxX lvl 161 le~~ super grats.. thinking of quiting maple liao.. SO sianzzz.
END HERE, upload photos in my nxt entry. TC all

Things getting for the better?

2009-05-19T22:04:00.001+08:00

Its been the 3rd weeks since i started working. Job scope is OK, abit rushing for time everyday nia, no time for lunch also. Not bad, just keep hurting myself nia. Sianzz. Erm, haven smoke for this whole day, maybe its time for me to really quit smoking?

Really need find someone to help me make my blog nice nice le. So plain like a new sheet of paper. Promise i will update my blog with more pics and colours.

YO aH YO~!!!!!

Maple is boring!!

2009-05-10T04:13:00.001+08:00

All i wan say today is, MAPLE SUX + BORING. EVERYONE is PUTTING ON A FAKE MASK!!!!

emo emo emo

2009-05-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

sianzzz, haizzz, saded, haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz haizzz...
I really dono how to say sia. Been emo-ing since yesterday night, cant even sleep at all. Noobshits...WHY WHY WHY?

Something is on my mind

2009-05-06T21:28:00.003+08:00

Nth much to say about my day today. Lets talk about my feeling. Sianzzz, mei mei say wan call back no call back, no one to share my problems.

I really dono wat to say about wats happening right now, izzit i got the wrong impression or izzit just me who thinks too much? Guess i'll nv know unless i go ask her directly, but how should i put it in words? So mao dun right now. Its not like i buay pie seh type and can ask her directly lo. Haha, so difficult to tell a person you like her. You dont tell her, the chance go slipping away, you go tell her, chances might be she will NEVER EVER talk to you again. Wat should i do? I seek from advise from 2 of my gal friends, one is my friend's GF another is my mei. Both give me the same ans and it's positive. I myself personally thinks something might work out between us, but still i dono how to ask. WTF, don even know how to control my emotions, PCB.........................................................................................................WAT SHOULD I DO???

Wat is happening?

2009-05-05T21:30:00.002+08:00

Today was my 2nd day at work, haha time pass fast with this work. Normal working hours, finally can get back to normal human being life. Work morning, go home in the late afternoon, play in the evening and sleep at night. Things going pretty smooth for me, and i hope things also going smooth for her. I'm feeling so shag right now, but still have to tahan until 12am cos need to do something.

Called my bro(devil) in the afternoon to keep myself update about his court case, that idiot didnt ans my call. After that called another one (Jonas) and find that he is out of town(Singapore). Cos his ringing tone is different from local call. You'll get it. Finally devil pick up his phone le and the first thing he ask me, always the same thing, "Who are you?" . zZz, save my bloody number la. Well, at least i know that his court postpone to 12th may. Haizzz, i really don wan you to go in but cant help it, you are still going in. I really regret not paying much attention to you, if i did, maybe can advise you on those stuff which you had did beforehand. Well, i update jonas later when he called, WOOT, he in malaysia with his boss sia. Shocking. Hope my action can bring us back together, trying to hold on to our strong Bonds after some stupid things happen between us. Guess i'm still immature in handling things ba. NOOB Charles.

Finally, and its really finally, i still dono whether that feeling a had for her is still the same. But i'm really tired of waiting for you, i know you didnt asked for it but its my choice. Tired of single life, tired of waiting. So i'll find someone whom i can really commit to, someone who really understand me and a shouldnt to lean on whenever needed. Haha, 2 more hrs to 12am.

Jia you!!!!

Finally.

2009-05-03T13:16:00.002+08:00

HIHI, been neglecting my blog for quite long le. Sianzzz, tml onwards start work at YHS company le. Guess its fate ba, lol i'm a member of SYH co. and now i'm working for YHS co. wahahahhaha, finding ways to comfort myself huh??? Its a five days work week and basic is 1000 triple plus meaning transport allowance and HP allowance PLUS commission. Not bad huh, haha. haiya, slack time over le la. so boring.

Anyway, the past few days went back to normal sia, met up with my S.K a.k.a Seh kaki, wtf lo, doing the same rountine all over again. OMG! i beginning to wonder if i can ever break away from those things. Haha, log in to my facebook the other day, cos really got nth to do ma, i dono who is this guy name michael ng, but he sent me a msg and the content is just "ass you and fuck you", i was like zZz, if its that michael i know then nvm, since he always scold me de, but if its someone i dono, i pity you cos your vocab so limited, so don come mess with me or you'll regret it. I no reply that stupid MSG is cos its last year de, new year ma, must control my temper le.

KK, end here today PS: Blogging is boring! Esp my blog cos no colour and PICs, must find time make nice nice. To my friends, good luck in watever you guys do, MeiMEi also, stop your chiong-ing life la you CB.

So touching^^

2009-04-11T14:40:00.002+08:00

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg

laugh Out Loud!

2009-04-10T23:14:00.003+08:00

Really LOL!!! i totally forget that i have a blog. Hahas, Wat can i say? Erm, quited my job, cos there just too sux!!! Everything also cut pay!!! Late cut pay, this cut pay, that cut pay. Cut until i wan cry le. Wahahaha. Back in maple-ling!!! Choing till lvl 127 le. Going stop and find work again. Sianz. i totally forget to blog sia. Haha, that day just take chicky from robin. So ex, $45 per stick. But not bad la the kick. Sad thing is, the stick too big le. Play until now still haven finish. OMG, really have to quit smoking , quit seh and quit drinking le. Be guai guai from now on. I know she also don wan see me like that. kk end here, update again tml. Muack!!.

back from chalet!

2009-04-02T07:36:00.002+08:00

Finally back home from CT birthday! OMG! Planned to skip work for one day nia but in the end ended up i staying at the chalet for 3 nights. Had lots of fun with CT and co. So many ppl turn up for his birthday and managed to catch up with old times. Haha.

Well, i did lie to my work place about having family problems and no being able to work for 3 days. Die le, dono if i still can keep my job anot but who cares? I dont really wan to work night shift anymore though. Really need to find a daytime job fast! to replace this bartending job. Haizzz...

After knowing my guildmates and seeing them in person, think i'm gonna hook back in maple le. Haha, good too! I find that one of them is not bad looking and we share the same interest, good huh. KK, end here. GOing mapling..

FUCK YOU!!!

2009-03-31T11:19:00.005+08:00

Now at chao ti chalet, haha decided to skip work for two days... Well, i needed the rest anyway. Nth much to do here, talk cock with botak they all and then michael and gang came down, lol. I go disturb him 'HOTDOG lips' till he buay tahan. Later met 4 chaiS wor, haha. Went red house together but in the end among the 9 of us only 6 enter and i was the one walking infront, i was abit scare but in front of chaiS must add macho abit. On the way back someone called my name, guess it must be one of the gals i just got to know. She is not bad wor, maybe i'll get her no. later. MUahahahaha. Back at chalet cant get to sleep, got 2 cars racing together. One is chao ti and another one is baby lo. Wa lao, really with they two around, we got a complete surround sound systems.

Wa, sianzzzzz, why i so stupid go view her profile again plus blog. Everytime view her blog, still sad to see her so happy together with the big potato. HAIZZZZ WHY WHY WHY!!! My friends all ask me give up give up i still cant. 1 year has pass le why i cant get over you!!! haizzz haizzz haizzz you already move on why cant i??? So fuck up you know.

Wat a DAy!

2009-03-30T18:33:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my off day sia, did nth at all. Went down to 146 find them and go up the thai temple to pray and re-charge my PUTT. Wa, i went to buy 4D and guess wat? i nearly tio horse shit of $500. Sat i buy short of 2 no. Sun i buy the no. jump places. Dono should be happy with my luck? or sad that i missed it. Haha. Nth to do yesterday so i went home early lo. Wanted to go seh de, but stayed home and play dota instead. Slept at 3am wake up not long ago. Today chao ti birthday, he asked me go chalet but i got work lehz. Now still thinking whether wan to go work or go chalet. But no go work minus 2days pay and cant take leave cos someone on MC till 30th. HAIZZZ, nv go later chao ye KPKB. Sianzzzzzz!

I'm so dead!

2009-03-26T09:59:00.002+08:00

Here i am again, no time to blog sia. Everyday work work work, after that go home sleep. No time for games, for life. Thinking of quiting in another 2-3 months time, see how. Only can off once a week. Talking about my off, so angry with that cb. Say hao le sunday go out, then last min no call or wat, si be dulan. My once per week off wasted. Not actually wasted la, meeted my S.K and go do stupid things. OMG, i spent over $100 plus that day and i've no idea wat i spent on. I must be so lost, just imagine how much amount i took for first-timer. Think stick to the old ones better.

I'm so dead!!! Haizzz, keep having running nose and feeling SOOOOOO tired. I heard that is a sign of addiction, FUCK UP. WAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO NOWADAYS??? HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

PS: Miss you guys so much esp wei. Hope to see you very soon, how much i wish we cos play the at that place for the last time. MISSES so much!

Nil...

2009-03-20T08:20:00.003+08:00

Another entry, HAizz. Been doing the same thin for the past few days, work sleep work sleep. Like no life like that. Sianz, after kelvin left, now everything regarding the bar is thrown onto me. So many new laws has been set, guildlines to follow. Its not as happy as last time when i work there le. Feel like quitting too, but no choice -__-. Have to work if not Papa mama KPKB. So tired, been having this headached recently, feeling so heavy.

Oh, yesterday SIS came to find me. HAha, long time no see her she become fat liao, SO UGLY!!! We chatted for awhile and then she left. Robin called too, talk cock on the phone. Well, at least i and him thinks alike, all Gu Ar Sua members are charming except for some black sheep. LOL ^_^

This sunday off, wan find him go out also he busy. Izzit my fault for wat had happen? I dono lehz. Maybe i'm being childish bax, even Vincent said so. But, i really dono lehz. Its like, whatever i got and can do i sure do for you guys. But when i needed just a tiny bit of help, all like wan avoid me. Wat you expect me to do? You guys understand how i feel at that point of time?Ya ya, to you all maybe i'm at fault la, being childish and inmature. But at my point of view, i don think you guys really wan to help me at all or even tried to find ways to help me. Ok la, i know you guys don owe me anything but just think back, have i ever done anything that harm you? Eh, i tried to ask you out on sunday le, wan or don wan up to you. I already put those things behind me le, wan to really make up or not its up to you le.

Happy!

2009-03-13T07:03:00.002+08:00

Just reach home from work, had lots of fun today and a little bit of du lan-ness. CB, that fucker ah boy give me a fucking face after i reported got missing bottles at the cabinet. Kinda like saying that i am responsible for that. Wtf, i started working at march and those bottles was opened on the feb, as if i can steal them like that. Stupid bartending job, i come back work for last then 2 weeks and they are pushing everything to me le. I think i wanna request to change with leon le, he be the bartender cum server, i be the bouncer. Hahas.

Had my off yesterday, supposingly its thursday but david msg me say got song ka on the wed. So i change my off day to wed but in the end, ended up at 146 drinking whole night no go song ka. Off day wasted. But then i enjoyed talking to old the old old people there, so fun. Michael's baby born out le. Not sure the birth date but should be monday ba, the 8th of feb? i'll ask again^_^. The name is Huang Jin yew aka Xiao xiang chang! Lols, i haven seen the Pics but i'm sure he will have the same lips with michael. Glad for that idiot, think its time for me to also make one out! HAHAAHHAS...

Talk to her that same night, haizzz. She's still so niave. Sometimes, somethings is not i wanna do de. But of doing it can make me forget you, i don mind doing it for the rest of my life. I'm not like you, i have a heart. I can say is, i'm happy with my life right now, wat i'm doing i also know very well, thanks for your concern. Just remember wat i told you, i'll always be there if you needed me.

So Shaq~!

2009-03-07T07:23:00.001+08:00

Finally got chance to update my blog. Been working for the past four days, So tired. 8.30 must reach, finish work at 6 am. But not bad la, there give me the feeling like when i work at delifrance when i still schooling. So fun working with michael and Co. even though there are still some Lan Jiao Lang there. Lol, going work like going to play like that, not bad. Nth much to say for now. Still the same, hoping for her to accept me. HAizzz, Love is so Mao Dun. And, i am not really happy with me life right now too. So Sianz, miss SEH-ing so much!!! Haha, wait i get pay, next target is ICE aka liew Ping! KK, end here, need sleep so tired. NIghts!

Back to work

2009-03-02T22:34:00.002+08:00

Lol, being staying out from home again for the pass few days. Lazy to update my blog cos nth really interesting to write. Haha, today onwards not going out and Seh so often le, must rest awhile and get back to work. No work = no money = no seh, lame^^.

CB, the lucy from after chinese new year keep saying will call me will call me, last week called me and confirm with me if i wan work her there. Waited another week still no call, Sianz. But
Michael called me yesterday and ask me go back and work. Think about it also not bad. I called kelvin in the morning and told him i will be back at work starting tml which is on the 3rd of march le. must work liao if not cant even pay my bills. Last night to enjoy myself at home bax, going dota-ing now. NIghts.

GG

2009-02-27T01:56:00.003+08:00

Today good boy, all the way stay at home rest. Haha. Woke at at around 7pm just now. Not due to enough rest but cos the ice-cream uncle's bell woke me up. I finish brushing my teeth and rush down to get one, Chocolate favour, not bad^_^. Then talk to my papa and went to bath, after bathing stuck at Com till now, need to change new com le, this com getting slower with each passing day. Sianz. After that cook and finish my dinner. Online watch anime until mum came home. Cook again at around 10+ this time round my supper, had something light. Mother ask me if i want to go malaysia tml overnight with her and her friends, expenses and enjoyment is FOC. I rejected the idea cos i thought i was going to SEH later. Who knows they bomb me, kinda regret not taking up the offer. Now chatting with one big noob. Maybe tml morning try asking mum bring me go also.

Haizzz, so sianz. I wonder wats god's plan for me? He's like giving me all sorts of tests to test me. Buay tahan, twice that type of feeling i am feeling right now. WHY toyed me like that you NOOB? FUN har?

LUCKY!

2009-02-24T13:21:00.002+08:00

Just when i was worrying about finding a job yesterday, LUCY called me in the morning. Woot, she ask me wait at home for michelle call to arrange a timing for interview. Haha, finally! I was waiting for their call since 3 weeks ago. I thought they didnt wan me le, maybe today is my lucky day! Lets see if she will sms me later, if she does, means today i am really lucky! Missing her hahas.

Going down to 146 later, meeting that F***** micheal and david i think, always call me when there is problem, saded again. So happy right now, couldn't control my laughter. I go mum mum and prepare to go out le. Sianz, still must remind him to return those disc i rented on sunday. Overdue charges $1 per day i think. No $$ to pay for those bo liao expenses le.

LIFE is just so sianz

2009-02-23T20:31:00.004+08:00

Three days no online le, at my friend house hiding away from reality. Sianz, my mum kept on making noise everyday, so tired of hearing her nag. Lol, but things don really seems better anyway, kept on thinking and thinking. So Sianz!!! I seriously wonder why god created women rather MEN himself. All i need is that 2 weeks - 1 month nia. Then things will get better. Haizzz.

Life is just so unfair. Some don't even have to work hard for something and they eventually got it with ZERO percent hardwork, others have to give in lots but still no result. So WTF right? I ask others why life is like this, some say god has a plan for everyone, a few said 'LIFE IS JUST.' So saded, i feel that god is neglecting his work of awarding the good guys, and dealing with the bad guys. Well, i'm not really saying that i am a good guy but at least i know i am not that bad enough to blend with the bad guys^^ Thick skin sia, haha.

CT and gang always say i MIAN HUAN LO, but they dono the real ongoing happening in my life. Not even those closest to me know anything at all about my family and problems, YA YA always see me laughing and cracking jokes but do you all really understand me? Talk about being my brother and buddy. I can only say is, i really enjoy the past few years being together with you guys, you all really treat me good and very TIEN WO. Thats the only reason that really kept me still in it bax i guess, if not i already run lo. Muhahaas.

Back to my life, zZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz, can see how sianz i am : ( There she is standing there nagging while i am writing this sentence. Father keep asking me go back Indo go find my uncles and go learn how to do business with them. And surprisingly, that mother of mine suggest me go to america go find my aunt and ask her to take me in! LOL. They is so naive sometimes, but think i'm going to make a decision within this few days bah. Most likely is going indo there, at least its only an hour flight back to singapore unlike going halfway across the globe. I really love to remain here cos my friends and my life all here, but my parents cant wait to get me out of here, unless i can find a job by next week, i believe i will have a hard time convincing them.

lets hope for the best^_^

zZz

2009-02-18T23:56:00.003+08:00

Hihi, just now after writing my blog i went out, sianz. Went down 146 and sit with them, fuck lo. Nth to do at home also, msg my buddy all no reply de lehz. Hope can strike 4D or toto soon, then can stay home shake head everyday le. Just reach home not long ago, CT called me ask me log in maple lehz but i don wan, so sianz with maple. DAr dar msg me just now, complain say i don wan her liao. OMG, when did i even say that. Just i busy recently then no time go online play with her then she kpkb. Wonder what will be her reaction when i tell her the wedding is cancel. LOL, better not tell her yet. Damn tired this days, lazy to do anything also. Even dota-ing also sianz, so many noobs and jokers around.

Eh, its been few days since i contacted them sia, really saded lo. But seriously do you guys think about how i really feel before? i always did so much for you all, cover this and that for you. When i got problem ask you for a little help, you give me excuses. What you wan me think? If i can manage on my own i wont even bother to ask you lo. Think about it la NOOB. You still dono wat i am angry at and you assume its becos of her. Who the fuck is she anyway? READ AND UNDERSTAND!!!

Lonely night at home again, lol...I go get my wine le. Nights pal.

18/02/2009 Emo-ing

2009-02-18T15:07:00.001+08:00

LOL, cant believe i back into blogging. Deleted all the old blog entries, beginning a new blog on the 18th( AGAIN 18) fav no of mine. Haizzz, i tot i given up on blogging right before new year but to think i am blogging right now. SADED

Woke up today feeling so sianz, had a hang over. I am getting serrious case of emo-ing right now, i took out my mum's beer and my bro's wine and i drink until late night around 3am. OMG wats gotten into me??? Like the feeling though, watching youtube and listening to songs. Watch Korean Movies online, Title ( love so divine and once upon a time in high school) . Both movies is about romance de, Funny and touching at the same time. Not bad. Dono why, i keep thinking about her the whole night. SIANZZZ, maybe david is right about me, Wo you xin li pian tai. Losing faith in relationship? or izzit really something wrong with me? Or rather, its the problem with them? :P

Doing nth this few days, lazy go out also. Well, looking forward to friday, going out with robin and ah xiong cos he off on friday. Maybe go temple charge my lizard with 2 tails de. Muhahaha. Haizzz, feeling so left out recently...Better stop writing so much le, i think i getting more gays with each passing days. write again tml bax. BB